and so it really is.....

I passed my finals and I'm now a doctor! It still hasn't quite sunk in. Now for the world of work....ahhhh!

the wait

I think this next week is going to feel like an eternity. Next friday we find out our final results. I do know that I don't have resits for the clinical and the viva but the sipps exams have no resits so we don't find out till friday whether we passed them. So I have a week in a sort of limbo. Lots of good books and some quiet time I think will be the order of the day! I'm just trying not to think too much of the papers.....
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Listening to: Taio Cruz - I Can Be
via FoxyTunes

the viva

Up bright and early this morning for the viva. Stomach was churning big time this morning. Worse than the sipps and the clinical (ok maybe the same as the clinical but ya know) I'm not sure how it went really. I feel a lot of waffle was had by all (by ME) but the half hour seemed to fly by. SO tomorrow I'll find out whether I have resits next week, then a week tomorrow we find out the whole chiiibang....more stomach churining? Oh yes I think so.

the viva prep

Nutrition, psychological aspects of medicine, communication, personal development, public health, disbility, pain, pharmacology, ethical issues, the lifecycle, evidence based medicine.....

All the topics which could come up tomorrow. Oh how much I hope the verbal diarrhoea doesn't start....reflection and thoughtfulness is apparently the key. Would Scrubs count as valid revision then? I wish.

the second sipp

And there goes another 2 hours of exams. Or 5 years of work reduced to 4 hours. It was tough (again) and I really don't know how it went. Next up it's the viva on thursday then on friday, I'll hear whether I need to resit the clinical and/or the viva. Sadly there is no resit for these sipp exams which makes it all the more nerve wracking. If I don't make it, it means another 6 months of study. Just now, I'm not sure I can take that. Back to the books.
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Listening to: Matchbox 20 - Bright Lights
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the first sipp

I guess that makes me half way through these exams. There's another of these 2 hour extravaganzas tomorrow and I really don't know...tough questions and my answers are just not good enough. The viva needs some work too so my frazzled brain is sticking to looking at stuff for that just now. Same thing tomorrow....gah.
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Listening to: The Killers - Mr. Brightside
via FoxyTunes

revision days

days slip one into another, weekends lose their meaning, mornings start a little earlier, nights stretch a little later and so it goes on reading, websites, practice questions, cups of tea, chocolate digestives.....but nothing over these five years has yet stopped those stomach churning nail biting nerves and afterwards I somehow manage to see it through those fateful rose tinted glasses-"it wasn't that bad after all." Well, it is- it's stressful-hair pulling gut wrenching days before exams and I just want to put it down here in writing. Something like labour pain I guess.....I just hope the result is as fabulous as a new born bundle.

the sipp and the viva

This coming week brings these two delights: a safety in practice and prescribing exam (well, 2 of these) and a portfolio viva. Then friday we find out whether it's resit time.....then a week on friday find out final results. Ever so slightly frazzled....

the clinical

so today was the day. clinical exam and now I just don't know. back to the books for next monday, tuesday and thursday. some things just keep going. loving the killers....."are we human or are we dancers"..... well, i'd argue we could be both...hmm, now for bed.
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Listening to: The Killers - Human
via FoxyTunes

5 days

It all feels impossible. Everytime I mention it, it sounds silly but it does-how will I ever know enough. Seems like never but with 5 days to go I guess that's not good enough. Exams 99% of thoughts. Sleep 1% Food 1%. That's how it goes. Gah. Well, here's my best shot.....